Everyone has a say
They all seem to know what’s best
“You have to be a certain way”
“Only so much is acceptable”
I try and try
But all my efforts seem in vain
What exactly do you want from me?
Who exactly am I to be?
They tell me to be myself
“You can’t let anyone change you”, they say
So I try to be myself
But, “myself”, seems to be more than they can take
All it takes is one sentence
And I seem to hurt everyone
Why is it this way?
They say it’s because of my insensitivity
I need to be more delicate
I need to be different
Why do the rules seem to apply differently when it comes to me?
They say words to me that I’m supposed to accept
I return the favour and I become the bad guy
The insensitive jerk that tramples of people’s feelings
Why did no one complain when the words were said to me?
They say it’s because I don’t feel
I don’t know what it is to hurt
“But I’m crying inside”, I say
They laugh at this and make a joke
It’s impossible to do that they say
But I know of what I speak;
I can feel a piece of me breaking each time
The fact that I don’t cry doesn’t make me less human
I try to be emotional
Maybe then they would believe me
But how can I be who I’m not?
I want to be accepted
I want to be “normal”
So I try to fit in again
I try to speak at the right times
Say the right things
Show the right emotions
But it all gets so tiring
I ask them again
“Why can’t I be myself?”
Instead of accepting me the cycle starts again
My parents tell me, “We know what’s best for you”
My friends tell me, “You have to be more like others”
Is, all of me, so bad that no one would accept me?
I can’t help but wonder,
If my family and friends feel the need to change me
Why would some poor guy want me in his life forever?
I have read hundreds of books and it’s always the same:
The guy falls in love because the girl is sensitive
Emotional, tender and a whole lot of stuff that I can’t relate to
I can’t help but think,
If all the authors are saying this,
Surely there’s some truth to it
What am I to do?
I try to figure it all out
I think deep and hard
What is wrong with accepting me for who I am?
Why does everyone around me seek to change me?
So many opinions,
It leaves me wondering
Just who am I to be?
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